Whew, what a week!!!

This week has absoulutely been the toughest in a long while. Adam is making progress, very slowly, but progress. He has taken a few steps and can talk with people. He's still very sedated, but not as much from the drugs. The doctors came in and tried to wake him up and ended up pushing on his pressure points and he yelled out in pain. Then his mom said hold out your hands so he won't hurt you and he did. It's taking a toll on his parents. One doctor told Pastor Mark not to hold his breath, in so many words. He got really down. That night, wandering around the hospital, he ran into a nurse. She happened to work in the ICU usually but hadn't been there the last week. He relayed Adam's story and what the doctor had said. She told him how long she had worked there and proceded to encourage him not to worry. From what he had said, Adam would end up okay. I think one of the most important things right now is a positive attitude and faith. Keep praying for that. Thank you for praying. It's really appreciated.

What else? I lost weight at my W.W. meeting on Monday. 3.8lbs. in 2 weeks. About what's expected. I slipped a little when I was sick. The only thing I ate, b/c it felt good, was ice cream. yeah, I know, I know. But I've kept it going instead of giving up b/c I slipped once. Ya gotta get back on that horse!

Tuesday, oh, the Hawkins spent the night Monday night. They stayed most of the day on Tues. Lori watched Kassidy while I finally went to a new counselor. Guess what? Not only do I have major depression and sexual abuse to work through, but also he diagnosed me with OCD (Obsession-compulsion disorder). At first I was blown away. I never, ever saw that coming, but gradually, it's a relief. For so long, I've felt crazy. Like nothing was really helping completely. This makes so much sense. The only thing is that he wants me to see a psychiatrist to handle my medication. Currently, I have no health insurance and it may be a little bit before it all goes through. (Long story.) You could all pray for God to provide the financial means. Counseling is $50 a session right now, once a week. My medication for depression is $115 a month. I'm not sure how much is going to change after going to the psychiatrist and what the new medication will cost. I'm really trying to leave it all in God's hands. He created me after all. But I know worry is a sin and have been really convicted on that as of late. So you can pray, please. Michael already works so much and so hard. He's always so stressed about work. I don't want him to worry more. He's talked about picking up another job - that provider instinct - and I'm not sure I could handle him being gone more than he is right now. We're working on it. God is in control.

Wednesday, went to chiropractor, another expense that adds up, came home. Ate lunch and then headed to Louisville for some Cold Stone with two of our youth and Doodle. We had fun, but more importantly, I'm building relationships with them. They are so sweet and almost always happy about life. Then we went straight to church to start on the youth fundraiser dinner. Spaghetti and meatballs. I made the meatballs, 320 of them! It was my first attempt and I got several compliments. I was glad. I tried really hard b/c cooking for others is less forgiving than family. It's nerve racking for me.

Thursday, I met Michael at 4 to transfer the title to the Saturn. Yeah, we sold it! Went from there to do our taxes. I'm glad we got money back, but we didn't get near as much as last year, b/c at the church he's considered self-employed. Yuck! Forgot K's soc. sec. number and couldn't finish. Went home got it, stopped at Cingular for a new phone and plan. Call the old one for the new number or email me. I ran to church for Bible study which ended up being canceled due to 2 people showing up. Went back to Walmart to meet Michael and finish signing our papers. Shopped some. Came home and started K's bedtime routine. It was all very exhausting.

Today, Kassidy woke up with a very runny nose and slight fever. We stayed in and are staying in all day. I made Michael schedule some guy time. He and Todd went indoor golfing. I hope it helps him. He doesn't have time to talk to anyone or to keep up any friendships really. He gets to see Tim Hawkins, but that's about it. I'm so thankful for his cell phone or he wouldn't talk to anyone.

Well, that's about it. I think. I love you all. Please pray for us. It's just a trying time right now. We aren't in crisis or anything, but things are taking over some. I'd really appreciate any encouragement.

Thank you.