Closing!

We are closing Friday at 4pm. I'm very excited. Overwhelmed that things are finally coming to an end with the buying a house thing. I'm frustrated with the moving aspect, but knowing that I won't have to do it for awhile is encouraging. I am getting sad about leaving Springfield all of the sudden. It's such a small, nice town. I will miss it. I will miss knowing all kinds of people b/c it's so small. I will miss only two traffic lights. I will miss running into town and seeing Steve, our buyer's agent. I will miss getting free cucumbers from a lady at church. . . . . . But, I will have my own house. I will be close to Michael at work and can run by on lunch or something. I will have a 24 hour Walmart. I will have a choice of restuarants. I will have a new church and ministry. I'm excited, just seeing this chapter closing as well.

God's been showing me a lot of myself lately. I'm realizing how much I depend on my own understanding and reasoning. How I don't pray about decisions if I can easily come to a conclusion and that it's wrong not to seek Him in all things. He misses me when I'm not constantly talking to Him about those "little" things. How I've missed Him! I'm letting go of a lot and giving Him the place He deserves over my life. I'm trying to seek Him first and to glorify Him and know that all else will fall into place the way He directs it. I'm trying to know that His ways look as foolishness to the world and be prepared for that. That's a tough one though. I'm trying to find the ways to be kind, gentle, forgiving, in a word, loving to all of his creation. So often, I don't reach out to people I don't know. If I don't, maybe no one will. how hard is it to say something and smile. It's not. I've been doing it and have been stretched, but grateful for the effort. Having a baby helps. Well, she's not much of a baby anymore. But anywho, that's what God and I have been working on.

I love you all. I miss you all. Thank you for keeping up with me.