Home

so, things with my bible reading have been rough lately. it's always easier to read another book for me. i don't know why. but for about a week now, i've been putting it off. everyday, i could feel this pull to just get back in his word. but stubborn me, i'd find something else to do. i know i was breaking his heart by not spending that kind of time with him. we'd still talk, but it wasn't our quality time like usual. so yesterday i was feeling really lousy. for some reason i've been having dizzy spells and i was dizzy all day long. the only time i felt right was lying on the couch facing the back so i'd feel two points of refence that weren't spinning. anywho, i started to feel better around 10pm. i felt like the whole day was a waste, so to make up for it, i started cleaning. as i was cleaning, i could feel his tug on my heart that everything wasn't right. i kept cleaning. around 12:30 i gave in and just grabbed my bible and read. it felt so good to just read and be convicted of what i was doing wrong and feel back in his presence in a good way. it's not all about feeling good, but knowing i was right again felt liberating. michael came into the bedroom after some devotion time of his own and we talked for awhile. his devotion had been on how sometimes we just need to go home. everything seems to be coming down around us and we want to give up, but we really just need to go home and get refreshed and empowered to go on. it gave a good example of his son having a hard time playing football in college. he called his dad and asked him for some money to fly home that weekend. he just needed to go home and regroup. just like he needed his physical home, we, as christians, need our spiritual home. jesus should be our home. no matter the issues we face, the time we're having good or bad, he's there waiting to fly us home to regroup. that's so the way i feel right now. he's been waiting and i wasn't paying attention to what i actually needed. home. jesus. just to be in his presence and feel sheltered. even when i wasn't obeying. he was just happy to have me again.

let your home always be jesus. love yous.