At the bequest of my mother!

So, yeah, it's been awhile, but most of you who read saw me not long ago. Things have been very busy and I already feel behind this month. I'm trying to complete my promotion in Arbonne to get a 4% raise in my compensation, but as of today I've not sold one thing. We'll see. For me, my month tends to end better than begin better, but I'd like it to reverse. Anyone know much about network marketing, I'm open. Thanks. Christmas came and went. We had 7 opening of gifts times this year which was kinda crazy. It's got to slow down sometime. I just want to be everywhere and spend quality time with everyone. It really bugs me that I don't get to see people more often and not just for a few minutes. I don't feel like I'm really friends with much of anyone right now. Nicole Gabhart came and helped me de-clutter a lot of stuff. I now have an office to work in. I'm still working on our bedroom, but there's not a whole lot there to get rid of. It just needs a good cleaning. I sent a lot to Goodwill. Like 5 boxes and 13 bags of stuff and that's not to mention the trash. The question is where did I have it all and why did I have it all? It really helped having someone not so sentimentally attached to my stuff go through it all with me. I'm so grateful for her time. I really don't have much else to say. Kassidy loves her toys she got and has even had fun with her clothes. I'm trying to let her have more of a say in her choices.

Oh, well, I did do something new today. I went to Wild Oats for the first time. I'm trying to cut out all non-organic stuff and really watch everything I eat and all the ingredients. It was a bit overwhelming, especially b/c I still couldn't just go grab what I wanted from there. Half the food was "natural", but not organic. Big difference. But I feel like we're moving in a good direction. I'm also working on cleansing not only my physical body, but my mental and spiritual as well. After the whole church thing gone wrong, I was really a lot more hurt than I thought. I said all the right things to people and hid how I was truly feeling, I think. I know some stuff I said sounded good, but it didn't get to my heart. Anyways, I've almost finished a book titled Search for Significance. I've had it for awhile and tried to read it several times, but I guess I wasn't willing to put forth the effort. Well, one day btw Christmas and New Year's I had a meltdown and decided I needed some serious time me and God. So Michael gave me the day. I locked myself in our office/guest room, put on my ipod and read. My Bible and this book. I prayed and I slept. Later that evening Michael went for dinner and I took a bath and I ended the day seeing "Night at the Museum" with Michael and Kassidy. It was just what I needed. I've started to really implement what I learned in my life and it feels good. I feel a lot more whole than I've felt in awhile. It'll take some time, but we're all a work in progress.

I love you all - whomever you might be.